rattled

 

Rigid fury.

Held against my will.

Computer hostage.

My wife told me to disengage. Walk away. 

Sitting on the wooden bench. Brain buzzing stuck. So upset.

I ended up standing beside the pond, staring down at my bare feet in the grass.

It was just then ----- my cell phone came alive ---- and a voice reached out to help untangle my emotions.

A friend who was led to call me. A little bird told me, he said. 

Like an angel. Like divine providence. Like a glass of cold beverage. Like a companion. Familiar and patient.

In due course we were telling each other corny jokes and laffing. It was salvation. The rigid clamp gave way to freedom. I ended up in our front yard, seated on the sun bench, birds chirping, clover between my toes, a grin on my silly face. So sweet.         

restoration comes when I hold my cat Pookie. Fur against my finger tips.        

Laying still on deck cushions, sun light 

Recall the rescue.

When I was carried

being low

being weak

still loved

exhausted 

anytime rest comes

sleep

recovery

lingering

drifting 

mindful

yes